copy/paste from tumblr

Sorry for the lack of art these last few months. Typically I draw everyday and try to actually finish stuff. But this last year seems it wasn't the best for when it comes to art. I have basically been going through an art-identity crisis, essentially always trying to define my art and carve the way that I want my 'style' to go to. By doing so, I feel like I've wasted a whoooole year on it instead of focusing on only improving and creating-especially considering the career choice I've made.

Whenever I sit down to draw something or paint, I instantly become too concerned with thoughts like what 'style' this has to be in, what kind of 'theme' it should fall under or what people will think of it. This has sucked the fun I used to have when drawing. Now, I typically don't care what people think of me, but when it comes to my art its the opposite. I guess you could say that I've been drawing for others instead of for myself and I feel like I've forgotten how to draw for the enjoyment for myself- which is what art should be.

I love everything about art; its history, the role it has in society and the relaxation of it I get when I create art. But I just don't know how to go back and forget all these thoughts of impressing others and just draw for only myself and no one else. So the point of all this, besides getting it off my chest, is to apologize to those of you who follow me on tumblr, deviantart or wherever. I feel like I've disappointed you guys. I just need to do some thinking about how to have fun creating art again and figuring out what I want to do with my art.

This turned out to be longer than I planned. But anyways, thank you for those of you who have sticked around; it means a lot to me c:


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